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4/25/2011

Why I Write






From the first week of fourth grade I can say definitively that I have been writing. My fourth grade English teacher had a weekly assignment due every Monday for a one page story. My young heart leapt and my writing began as most little girl’s does with rainbows and butterflies and everything that makes us happy. I am unashamedly a girlie girl.
My writing has been my own since then, I had also the inherited a gift for singing, being in a musical family and performing on stages since the age of six. That was the gift I shared, but my writing was for me.
Lately the shift has changed. I read a book from a friend who is published and lives in my hometown. I remember visiting her home when I was young when my family went for a visit, her children where my age. She was always friendly and smart. Her book was intuitive, real and well told. I enjoyed the read so much and I am ashamed to admit I was shocked.
How can someone from my hometown be such a good writer? It must be a well rehearsed small town insecurity that talent is only born in big cities. My mind began to shift and after a meeting or two with my new inspirational friend I was encouraged to finish what I had started more than a decade before.
It’s hard to remember when I began as “the Oregon trail” book for it was in my head long before I ever wrote anything.
More than a decade ago the research and writing began. I have always loved history. My secret longing to time travel gets to come out and play for when I write it feels like I am there.
My book sat with several chapters done, piles, and piles of historical research had been gathered for more than a decade. I know it sounds a bit like a mental illness but this whole time the characters have been in my head, growing and learning with me on my life’s pathway.
I cannot thank my friend sufficiently for being brave enough to share her book with the world and helping me be brave enough to share mine. In the last year I have finally finished my first novel. SEEING THE ELEPHANT
Weekly visits and nearly daily emails have been shared with encouragement and sharing word counts at the end of the day (or wee hours of the morning.)
The story to me means so much because it is the struggle to find her strength in a male dominated world. I can understand and relate to my characters as they trudge through the untamed land.
With the application of my new writing disciplines the next stories are coming and all the research has paid off well. I can’t wait to share my stories with the world.


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1/29/2011

Leah's Good Deed - Kinda

Out grocery shopping and was stuck behind a long line of cars at a red light.  As i worked my way up the line I saw a woman wrapped up in hat and scarves carrying a sign.

"WILL WORK FOR FOOD"
Laid off - need food for my kids.

I watched her get into the car in front of me and left her purse behind. I honked my horn before they took off but they were gone and her purse was sitting on the icy curb.
I was at a loss of what to do. Should I take the purse and see if I can call her or take it to her home, or leave it there at the mercy of someone who could steal it and not return it. I was convinced I should help, the light was still red so I jumped out and ran over to the cheetah purse still in the snow.
I was shocked by what I saw. The purse was empty but for a large empty bottle of vodka.

I left it there. Good feeling gone.

-Sigh-
By: Leah Banicki

11/10/2010

One Month gluten Free

** Self Diagnosed with Celiac Disease - Blogging my Gluten free Journey **

One Month in the Gluten free trenches.


Slowly getting my energy back. Felt really toxic from the second week on. I finally got desperate and googled some ways to detox my body. 

Green teas  - mint, chamomile, cinnamon were my daily by the gallon choices
Epsalt salt baths - with baking soda added one day, raw sliced ginger another day, and real lavender essential oil on the third day
Essential oil rub - olive oil with a few drops of peppermint oil, lavender oil  & chamomile oil. Rubbed over my abdomen at night before bed and again when I got up.   (I thought it was a bit silly but I actually was less achy after the first night.)




I really noticed the difference 
after the baths, teas and abdomen oil rub. 

I took some alfalfa in capsule form and when I didn't feel sick from it I took a little more the next day.  Sometimes certain vitamins still really bother my grain-mangled guts. The toxic feeling started leaving and I actually was able to get some decent sleep for a few days.

The last few days my guts are starting to calm down and the random pains are lessening. I am determined to just go one day at a time.

What I ate this week:
Got some Udi's gluten free bread - Yummy
made toast one day and a peanut butter and jelly the next - pretty good

Made homemade spinach dip - SO DELICIOUS!!  I loaded it with tons of green veggies and am sad  cause it's all gone. It's the best thing I ate all week. Used almond crackers or corn tortilla chips for dipping.

Betty Crocker GF brownie mix - fudgie goodness. I got teary-eyed after the first bite. Even my hubby liked it.

Homemade cornbread - It was tasty but turned hard as a brick after a day. Will adjust the recipe.

I am hungry so I am off to whip up some gluten free goodness. I am anxious about the upcoming holidays and my ability to partake. Need to be patient and prepared.

I'd love to thank my mom this week for the cheerleading and dragging my sorry behind to the health food store. Mom, you are great company and I am glad we are in this together!

Leah Banicki
Gluten free since 10-8-10

11/02/2010

3 weeks gluten free - still alive

There are many people who think that going Gluten free would be a life sentence to boring food. I have heard some people have refused to go gluten free even with a diagnose of Celiac's disease. That is sad to me. The more I read the more I see dangers of continuing without changing the diet. Danger's like cancer, infertility, seizures and more.
If gluten filled foods like pizza, bread & donuts are killing me... I can live without them.

The reality is, if every time you ate these things they acted like broken glass in your body eventually you would stop, if you knew.

I am not tempted in the slightest to eat anything with gluten right now. Seriously, I miss me. The singing , writing , social person that was Leah before my body went haywire.  I miss having the energy to work out and go to my kid's sporting events, ( I missed an entire season when I couldn't get out of bed because of intestinal pain when I ate anything.)  I gave up my singing , writing and living. It was a dark and lonely place, even with the love and support of my family.

Three weeks in  and surviving. First two weeks were better honestly. A lot of research has led me to understand that coming off of gluten can be tough. There is a detoxing phase. I am losing weight and its a sad fact that toxins live in stored fat. (I know, not pleasant to think about.) Had lots of leg cramps this week.
I have felt sick for two years but I don't know the damage that was done to my intestines. I am eating with the idea to heal. I am not worrying about how many calories. Though my habit is too barely eat and I am working hard to change my eating.

My husband says I still don't eat enough.  He takes such good care of me. He has embraced my new gluten free life and cheers me on.

Today:  made homemade cornbread  (http://glutenfreegirl.blogspot.com/ recipe)

So tasty. Had seconds with a little apple butter.


Organizing my gluten free pantry. Will probably make some muffins today too. Stocking up so I have some handy food so I eat healthier and more, to make me and my hubby happy. = P

10/25/2010

Gluten free Story - Hilarious



A Celiac friend of mine and her partner entered a restaurant well known for catering to Celiacs.

The were seated and the server came with a menu, after they had time to peruse the menu the server returned.
As soon as he opened his mouth it was obvious he was East European.

Before my friend ordered, she thought it wise to let him know she was a Celiac.


She said " I'm a Celiac and I can't eat Gluten "

Server: Blank Stare



She tried again " No Wheat, Rye or Barley"

Server: Blank Stare


Desperation was setting in she tried once more.

" I can't have flour, very very bad, make me sick"



The Server had a big smile on his face:
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and removed the rose from the table !!

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Thanks to David H. for posting this on Gluten-free Faces. 

http://www.glutenfreefaces.com