Leah's Prayer

Prayer to my Abba: (Father God)

To me You Are...

My heart mender,
My dream maker,
The air I breath,
The music I sing,
The Peace in my confusion,
The author of my 2nd chances,
My reason to dance
The Wisdom when I need it,
The healer of my brokenness,
The Light in my dark places,
The forgiver of my flaws,
The mystery I ponder
The lover of my soul.

I will forever sing your praises.

~ Leah

“I will greatly rejoice in the Lord, my soul will exult in my God; for He has clothed me with the garments of salvation, He has covered me with the robe of righteousness” (Isaiah 61:10).

New Start - Broken hearted

Facing the world ... with a broken body and broken heart. As my family is coming down from the adrenaline of a whirlwind Christmas funeral it's hard to know what to do with myself. With a sprained ankle and bruised/broken tailbone , I know I need to focus on recovery. I am tempted every hour or so to lose my patience with my body. To be so immobile when I am desperate for a distraction is really frustrating.

I take turns praying for people in my life that are hurting, my mom & dad, my brother-in-law, and my brother .

I don't know if God has ever been closer to me. He is breathing for me, I think. My only prayer for myself has been pretty simple. "Oh Jesus please help me!"

Life starts back up tomorrow, husband to work and kid to school. It seems so huge a task but yet so simple.
My first day back to work will be hard, even tho it will be nice to have something to focus on. My sister's Ichat picture will be shadowed. It' s the little things that devastate us sometimes.

Looking forward to finding a song that makes me smile. Looking forward to losing the crutches. Just looking forward....

Leah Ort Banicki

~ Thanks to everyone praying for my family. All the encouraging notes and meals have really helped us through.

Seasons

Waking up
Finding I am in a place I don't like.
Talking with God and realizing I had let people tell me I was unworthy.
Why do we believe people who barely know us?
Why do we sometimes let rejection sink in and camp out?


I realize now
Letting God clean out the cobwebs is the best kind of spring cleaning.
Forgiveness and forgetting really does the trick.
Those moments may seem like a "duh" to everyone else but they can be so profound.


Leah's new catch phrase-

When life hands you lemons just throw them away.
Don't drink it!





Verse that gives me goosebumps today.

Isaiah 60:1 (Amp)

Arise from the depression and prostration in which circumstances have kept you. Rise to a new life! Shine, be radiant with the Glory of the Lord for your light has come and the Glory of the Lord is upon you.

Perhaps my honesty and open-ness is the thing that some people don't get. But I have to be the person God made me: Compassionate, open, over talkative, goofy & flawed.

- Leah Banicki

Got laughter?

Things that made me laugh today-

Someone dancing badly with an i-pod walking by my window downtown.

Making a conspiracy theory w/ a co-worker about a secretive business across the street. My thoughts... a meth lab.

Email I got from customer- "I will contact you soon." (leah wonders if that person understands that an email is a form of contact)



Quotes:

Insanity runs in my family. It practically gallops.
~ Cary Grant


Let's face, there's lots of spoiled kids out there...
because you can't spank Grandma.
~ Janet Anderson

Some drink from the fountain of knowledge - others just gargle.
~ unknown

I knew I was drunk. I felt sophisticated and couldn't pronounce it.
~ unknown

Nothing in fine print is ever good news.
~ Andy Rooney

A song- writing day

Today was a good day off. Spent quiet time reflecting. I am at peace.
I've been tossing a few song ideas around my head for a few days but nothing has been sticking. I decided that I was going to let inspiration finds it way to me and not force it. So I spent awhile looking up friends on blogspot and felt like writing here a little, I don't do it near enough these days. I find though, that when I keep writing journals and blogs it keeps my mind alert and refreshed. That is where the best songs come from.

So talking to the world(or in this case the few people who read my blog) keep my song-writing skills alert.

A few funny things I've written in my song-writing idea book
all by yours truly...
Country tune - "I got a minus sign in my checkbook balance"

OK this one isn't funny but I was definitely venting-

A chorus for a venting song-

Gone are the days of teaching integrity
Take what you want, no one cares if you’re cheating
The dollar is king and sin is exalted
Morals are choked out, prayer is halted
Belief in good is weak, our rights are now frozen
Opinions aren’t free, someone else gets to choose them

I may still record this one, it has a melody but I don't have the right music for it yet.

This line is the start of a short story I wrote awhile back called desperation.

I had screwed up, messed up and fouled up my life. My mind was shaken and overtaken by negative thoughts . . . and I believed them!

Maybe I'll blog it , I don't know.

Well life beckons me back- maybe I shall go back to work.

Leah